BAILEY2088

Its been brought to my attention that some people have been talking about me, specifically Loganwaynee. I will not deny that I have used pieces of his stuff in the past. We had a understanding at one point that it was fine if I were to use his things, as long as I did credit him, and then he messaged me, while we were both still on MIB, and told me I no longer had to credit him. And no, I no longer have the message, due to the fact that the messaging on the site will only keep a certain number of messages and this was years ago. I had helped him in the past, sent him my templates, which he then bettered, and I then used those that he updated. Thats how the site and those on it did things in those days. We helped each other out. For some reason, that I cant even begin to fathom, hes moved past those feelings, and I dont know if its ego or what.

I want everyone to know something about me. Six Years ago I was diagnosed with Hodgkins Lymphoma only an hour after finding out that my sister had passed away, and then lost my grandfather the next year. I had a lymphnode the size of an egg in my neck and more than 2 dozen smaller ones surronding my heart, which caused me to faint four months before finding out about them when they constricted my heart. I went through 6 months, 12 treatments of chemo. And through those 6 months I was microing every day. Sometimes pumping out about 10 micros a day. I wasnt working, I was hurting, tired, depressed, and suicidal. The one thing that got me through most days was working on what became my DCverse of micros. And after doing this everyday for 6 months, I got tired, and the microing reminded me of what I went through, and I took a small break.

It was during this break, that really started to take off, as did other micro makers such as and . The style of micro that I had been working on at the time had become outdated and I changed up my template to match what they were doing. I started studying the different styles of each artist, as I had done when I had first started. And along the way, I got lazy, I began to do what alot of people in this community call Frakenstiening.

A friend recently sent me a copy of a note that Logan had wrote on the 11th, and while I dont appreciate the attack on me, as he does not personally know me, nor what I have gone through over the last six years, and am still going through. I do not appreciate the attack on my family because of my actions. For those wondering, this is what he said. "And if these people behave like that online, I can only wonder how erratic/unstable they are on the real world (I pity those who have to live with them)."

He also made a comment about something that we had recently argued about, which I take into the consideration of why he blocked me, though I do take full responsibility. " And then, to try to avoid this shitty situation, I have to resort to the block button, and then, have to listen someone say to me other someone was sad/mad/irritated because I blocked the person for "no reason", like for real? How much alienated someone can be? I believe these people has no grip on reality." I had made a comment to him before he blocked me for a second time about not caring if he did it again. The first time he had blocked me had been due to the fact that he had disliked the fact that I liked the art of another micro maker that had apparently been using his stuff. He had apparently been doing this to others, which when he unblocked me told me he couldnt force someone to like or dislike something that he approved of or didnt approve of.

I like Logan, I always have, and honestly I always will. Ive said it before, and I will say it again, the man is talented. And he knows it, but I do feel as if hes letting everything go to his head. I dont want to see he him face a situation like we see so many influencers face that get so big so fast. And sadly, I do see him going in that direction. He made a comment in the note "But the life of a true artist like myself...". To me, you should never call yourself a true artist, a true musician or anything. It should be a title that is earned, not declared. I liken things like this to a quote by Tywin Lannister on GOT, "Any man who must say I am King is no true king."

To end this, Im going to be taking a break, hopefully a short one, to reevaluate some things, and work on others. To those that I have pissed off, I had no intention of doing so. Microing is my favorite thing to do, it has been a major stress reliever in my life for the the last 6 of the 10 years that Ive been doing this. But along the way, I lost myself, and its time a I found myself again. To , , , , , , , as well as anyone else that Ive hurt, again, Im sorry.